Reflecting.

This is a postal service generally for myself. Something that I demand to write downwards thus I tin come upward dorsum in addition to remember. If you lot desire to, acquire ahead in addition to read along but I warn you lot - it mightiness acquire a lilliputian long in addition to move a tad boring. :)

Looking dorsum on this year, it has been a yr of increment in addition to struggle. Good scrap & bad struggle. H5N1 total yr of plumbing equipment pieces of a puzzle dorsum together, erasing scars of my heart, in addition to opening novel doors. I await dorsum in addition to realize that I gibe a lot into this by yr in addition to it brings cipher but joy. I had a lot of stressful moments but I had back upward in addition to comfort later the storm. And that only brings joy that overpowers all the difficult times. For that I'm thankful.

But something else I've noticed is that I select non grown inward my religious belief amongst God. And that's something I've actually struggled amongst inward the by two years. You tin acquire read this post and that gives you lot a lilliputian smidgeon of info. We lost our youth pastor unopen to that fourth dimension in addition to it's been difficult ever since. (We produce select a novel youth pastor forthwith in addition to he is super awesome! Just losing the 1 earlier him was pretty fossil oil for a while) Someone actually particular to me asked me the other twenty-four hours "How is your walk amongst God?" in addition to all I felt was disappointment. In myself. In my church. In my heart.

My religious belief has been tested a lot over the by two years in addition to I've realized that I rarely turned to God when I needed something or was hurting. I turned to my friends or raged at my parents or cried lone inward my room or complained to God. I never prayed to Him or thanked Him or cried out to Him. And I'm SO THANKFUL to everyone inward my life who has in addition to volition ever move in that location for me inward difficult times. Whether it's girls from my team, my parents, my best friends, or my grandparents. But most of all I'm thus thankful to select a God that is thus forgiving, thus loyal, in addition to thus selfless. If it wasn't for Him non giving upward on me or letting me laissez passer on upward on myself in addition to thus I'd move inward a lower location inward my religious belief than I am correct now.

I'm the daughter that tries to ever select a grin on her face, who hates letting people down, in addition to has a positive outlook on life. My life is beautiful. And in that location are times when I intend "my life couldn't acquire whatsoever better" in addition to times when I intend "my life couldn't acquire whatsoever worse". But whether it's good, bad, or beautiful - it's non perfect in addition to I'm non perfect.

So reflecting dorsum on this yr it's been an adventure. H5N1 crazy one. In 2014, I desire it to move fifty-fifty crazier. I desire to move crazy for God in addition to for the life in addition to time to come He has for me. Not the plans I select for myself but the plans that HE has for me. I desire to strive to acquire well-nigh Him in addition to to try Him inward all that I do.

"But the Lord stood amongst me in addition to strengthened me." two Timothy 4:17

xoxo,
Michlyn